Reality is threatening when we try to live in our stories and preconceived notions. But when the mind is free of the falsity of delusion, things that are real pose no danger to the mind.
What you’re doing right now is very important—a principle that applies to any “right now,” because what you’re doing right now is always shaping “right now” as well as the future.
In one breath you’ve got everything you need for the practice, so be fully aware right here, and the fullness of your awareness will develop over time without your having to pace yourself or to plan ahead.